im scared of the coming days. i really do need something to distract me so my thoughts dont linger to the thing i dont want to think about. i havent been this scared since... ever? yesterday i saw the most stupidest thing in k-mart or it could have been target. it was a new design of christmas tree that they advertised as a trendy new thing. it was an upside down christmas tree. gee when i saw this it made me angry. i dont know why. but i just find it really really angering. apparently you're suppose to hang it from the ceiling. the thought of it just made me even more angry. and i dont know why but at neeta city yesterday it really really stunk like b.o.